THE DAY HAS FINALLY COME!!!

Today, October 9th, is my last day at this job. I am at work 30 minutes early to try to catch up on things before the rush of patients start. I don't think it has hit me yet, because I still feel like I have to come to work next week. But, I don't. HALLELUJAH! All I know is, bitches better give me the unemployment they promised me or there WILL be a fight.

After work, I am leaving to go to my grandmother's house to spend the night there, and then leave there about 4am so I can get to Ohio by 2pm. I am going to be tired as HELL. Thank God, I have a few hours to take a nap before going to see Ed in "You're A Good Man, Charlie Brown." Talk about excited. For one, I haven't been to a show in forever and, secondly, I finally get to hear Ed sing. He is supposed to be amazing, and I can't wait. Also, I am excited to finally meet my long lost brother. It needs to be tomorrow RIGHT NOW!

I posted this on my twitter, but this morning I made sure everything was in my car, and I ran back inside to take a shower. While getting dressed, I put my shoes on and then realized I was still in my underwear. I couldn't help but bust out laughing at myself. So much going on in my mind, that I forgot to put pants on. Not cute!

Okay, I have to get off of this so I can start some work while I listen to ABBA. :-)

Just a head's up - this is not going to be a happy, funny blog.

First off, I am worried about my sister. She is pregnant with a jerks baby (he beat her) but she just found out that her baby's lower spine is not developed properly so he's probably not going to be able to walk and/or control his bowels. She is SOOOO depressed about that, saying that the baby is being punished because of her mistakes. And on top of that, the jerk wants her to get an abortion because he "can't have a baby like that." What an asshole. My parents are going up there tonight for a couple of days to be with her because she is having such a hard time. I love my sister and hope everything turns out okay.

In a selfish, not so important turn.....I hate the way I look. Not just the weight (which is a HUUUGE issue) but me in general. On camera, I look okay but I noticed myself in a mirror walking back to my desk and I look like a flippin' blimp. I need...need....NEED to lose weight. I am tired of seeing this fat, ugly piece of lard in the mirror.

Damn, I am not in a good mood at all.

But please keep my sister in your thoughts a prayers. She needs it, badly!

Something that I have always known, was validated today while I was standing in line for lunch. These three women were talking about dog fights in some area around here and they were all, "OMG, I love them dog fights. I used to pay so much money to go every weekend and watch them." Then they started talking about how the people who run said dog fights kill the dog that loses and they were saying it in a manner as if they were talking about getting their hair done. If I had more courage, or balls of steel, I would have said something but I just shut my mouth and ordered my food. Reason #4651351065403 I want to leave the south is because of this crap. I know dog fighting is rampant all over the country, but the south is HARDCORE into it. Let's see those women get thrown into a ring with knives and shards of glass and see how fun it is. Stupid bitches.

On another note, I went to Walmart and got the last little bit for my Ohio trip this Saturday. It needs to hurry up because I am muy excited. I've never driven such a far distance by myself. I think the longest I've ever done is 4 hours, and this one will be 11. I've also never gone further north than West Virginia or further west than Georgia. I am going to be tired as hell when I get there, but thank God for a few hours before Ed's show where I can get a nap in. I am going to have next to no money for this trip (aside from gas money), so I am going to have to be extra cautious as what I spend money on. Cheap ass food or sandwhiches for me. Woot! *sarcasm*

Today begins the countdown of the end of this job. To say that I am ready for it, is a VAST understatement. I am just tired of all of the b.s. this hospital seems to be all about. Almost no training and instead of telling you your mistakes and showing you ways to fix it, they let it build and build and build and then jump all over you for not doing it right the past month. How the hell does that work? I can't learn unless you tell me. Hopefully my next job won't be this incompitent. 'Fo Shizzle!

I think I have the flu. Funny, since I just got the flu shot yesterday. Either that, or I am having a mild reaction to the flu shot, which I don't think so since I have been kinda sick since earlier this week. But, man today is the worst so far. Last night, I went home and didn't even take the nyquil, but passed out anyway around 6:00pm and woke up this morning at 7:00am. And when I say "wake up," I mean alarm going off and having to force myself not to fall back asleep. I was fine laying still, but as soon as I moved to get out of bed, my whole body screamed in pain. I literally I had to lay there with my leg hanging off of the bed for a couple of minutes. My body is still sore right now. Also, my sinuses are still blocked and I have no appetite. Since I fell asleep so early last night, I didn't have dinner. I didn't have breakfast either but forced myself to eat lunch since I know I should be eating something. But, in all honesty, I am not hungry. Snacky...maybe. Hungry, no! This shit needs to end by Monday. I have no plans this weekend but to lay in bed, so it can do it's thing and get gone.

ONE MORE WEEK EXACTLY UNTIL I AM GONE FROM THIS HELL HOLE! Thank you, Jesus! *speaks in tongues*

Yup, still sick. I had a horrid night sleep last night and finally decided just to give up around 4am. I'm probably running on about 3 hours of sleep all together. I just felt like I was suffocating last night due to my sinuses being blocked. Then, around 6am, I started coughing and haven't stopped. I went all year without having this crud, so why am I getting it now with my Ohio trip only a week away? Hopefully, it will be gone by next Saturday. Tonight's mission - high dosage of Nyquil and then bed. And in a kind of ironic twist, I went and got a flu shot today. Woo Hoo!

My parents decided yesterday that they are going to go to my grandmother's house until Saturday, so I have the whole house to myself. Too bad I don't have a secret lover I could bring over, because boy do I need it. Just sayin'! But, the peace and quiet will be nice tonight as I try to keep some much needed sleep. I am so sick of being sick. Ya dig?!?

For some reason, I am in the mood to have a horror movie marathon. I think Saturday, I am going to gather up all of my horror dvds and just have a day with them - popcorn and all. I love me some horror movies now. Yessir, I do!

I am so freakin' ready to go home. Don't want to be here and I am sick of looking at this place. Come ON one more week. Watch it drag, too. Dangit!