Just a head's up - this is not going to be a happy, funny blog.

First off, I am worried about my sister. She is pregnant with a jerks baby (he beat her) but she just found out that her baby's lower spine is not developed properly so he's probably not going to be able to walk and/or control his bowels. She is SOOOO depressed about that, saying that the baby is being punished because of her mistakes. And on top of that, the jerk wants her to get an abortion because he "can't have a baby like that." What an asshole. My parents are going up there tonight for a couple of days to be with her because she is having such a hard time. I love my sister and hope everything turns out okay.

In a selfish, not so important turn.....I hate the way I look. Not just the weight (which is a HUUUGE issue) but me in general. On camera, I look okay but I noticed myself in a mirror walking back to my desk and I look like a flippin' blimp. I need...need....NEED to lose weight. I am tired of seeing this fat, ugly piece of lard in the mirror.

Damn, I am not in a good mood at all.

But please keep my sister in your thoughts a prayers. She needs it, badly!