I'm still sick. I think it is actually worse today. Now, I have one of those headaches that makes you dizzy. Plus, it is 57 degrees outside and I am SWEATING. I am glad this is happening now, so I can get over it by the time I go to Ohio on Oct. 10th. That's right, folks. The parentals are holding up their end of the original bargain and paying for the hotel room. WOO HOO!!!

I found out last night when I got home, that my mom and dad gave our puppies to some elderly couple who just lost their yorkie (she died). I would be sad about it, but they really need people who will pay attention to them and play with them. I tried to do it as much as I could, but my parents would just shut all of the doors and they would only have the hallway to run around in. That's no way for 2 dogs to live. So, Jensen and Cinnamon.....hope you are enjoying your new life. Salud!

I don't feel well today at all. I think my dad passed something to me, because he has been having stomach issues and cold-like symptoms and now I have it. One of the worst things about this job, is that there is only one person who is trained to come take my spot when I am out or need to leave early. And OF COURSE the day I really want to leave, she says that she does not have a vehicle, so I have to stay at work. They need to figure something out, because I can't keep feeling like this and be expected to have all of my work done by the end of the day.

Yesterday, while I was at work, I was happy. When I got home, it went in the complete opposite direction. I felt so alone and sad. I get that way a good bit, but last night it was more overwhelming than usual. Besides checking the websites I go to to see if there has been any updates, I virtually stayed off the internet last night, which is RARE for me. I just didn't feel like being on it. What I did do was watch the original "A Nightmare on Elm Street" and made a sad/depressing mix. Pass the ice cream right on over, right? I think it's all of my emotions and stress finally starting to get to me. The stress of losing a job and possibly moving....and the emotions of just being alone with no one to hang out with or talk to. I also think that the sickness started to show itself last night as well, and it just hightened everything. Damn, I want to go home.

But, speaking of "A Nightmare on Elm Street," the trailer for the re-vision of it just came out yesterday. I have been so against this since day one because it is one of my favorite horror movies next to "Halloween" and I thought it was perfect the way it was. Well, after seeing the trailer, I changed my mind. I am still not convinced but it does show that it is paying tribute to the original but at the same time, doing it's own thing. Plus, Jackie Earl Halie is a great actor and I am sure he will do Robert Englund justice. If you want to see it, the trailer is on myspace and youtube. Looks purdy good.

Still haven't had a definite answer about the parentals paying for the hotel so I can go to Ohio. I keep telling them I need to know so I cancel my plans before it's too late, but they still have to think about it. Either way, I wish they would just tell me. Either I am going or not. It's that simple, folks.

I want to go to sleep for the next few years, please. Thank you!

I am so tired of having turkey burgers for lunch. Unfortunately, that is the only thing in the cafeteria worth eating. I really want to try the "Morningstar" food products, like the nuggets and pattys. I hear it's pretty good and healthy for ya. And of course, I would open up the blog talking about food. Damn, I need to lose weight!

In just a little over a week (11 business days to be exact), I will be gone from this job. The worst thing about knowing when your end date is, is that it becomes harder and harder for you to do your work, because the attitude of "what's the point? I'm leaving soon anyway" sets in. Well, at least it does for me. It takes extra effort to get up to come here and when I AM here, I am just "blah."

In Ohio news, my mom just informed me yesterday that they may not be able to give me the money they said they were going to give me for my birthday when the NYC trip was still set. They said they were going to pay for my plane ticket, but since I am not going to NYC, I said that they could take that money they were going to spend on the plane ticket and just pay for my hotel stay in Ohio. They said, "sure." Now, it's all, "I don't think we'll be able to because we have to take the money we have to pay bills and back taxes." Okay, I understand that and root you on, but why are you telling me this now when it's so close to when I am planning on going to Ohio for a couple of days? Why couldn't you have told me this a couple of weeks ago when it was just an idea. I am still in talks with them about it, but yeah......not a happy camper.

On a completely different note, do you ever get the idea, or feeling, that you are being used? I do one nice thing for a couple of people and then all of a sudden it's like the only reason they talk to me is to get me to do it again. And no, it's not whoring myself out. That would be a travesty put upon the world if I did that. I think that there is a verse in Revelation that states that one day a fat boy will take off his clothes in public and bring the world to an end. Anyway......got off on a tageant there.....do you ever feel like that? Well, the "being used" thing. Not the whoring yourself out. Damn, there I go on that tangeant again.

Of course, I have to write about something that happened at work, since it seems every day here is worth writing about. This woman came in for her evaluation (first visit) and when she sat down with me to schedule her appointments, she goes, "My husband left me and is living with some younger woman." All I could do was look down at the paper because I honestly didn't know what to say. Then she broke into the sob story about being together for 29 years and he is going to keep her on his insurance because she has to get something out of that 29 years." I kept saying that I was sorry, but why would you tell a total stranger this? I understand she just wanted to have someone to listen to her and be, kind of, a shoulder to cry on, but that is what family and friends are for. I feel bad for her, but it just made me feel weird her telling me all of this.

Okay, kiddies. It's about that time that I get back to work. Have a great day! *Muah*

I ate so much during lunch, I feel like Kirstie Alley, pre Jenny Craig *barf*.

I really should be working, but I decided to take a moment to update the ye ol' blog. I almost threw my Sobe Life Water bottle at a patient earlier. Bitch came in here at 12:20pm and got mad when I told her that lunch is not over until 1pm. I would understand if she was new, but she has been here a while. Like my boss says, "If ever there was a person that the word 'crazy' could be used to identify.......it would be her." Seriously, she a nuttah!

The new FAME came out today, and I really want to see it. Mainly for Kherington from "So You Think You Can Dance" and, of course, the dancing. It has gotten horrible reviews, but if it carried any other title, I bet it would get raves. It's not gritty like the original so, of course, it's a bad movie. Granted, I haven't seen it yet, so it could very well be a disaster. I don't have any money, so I can't go watch it unless padre lets me borrow some. Actually, what I think I am going to do this weekend is just sleep. I tend to do nothing BUT sleep when I am not at work, but I can't get over being tired. No matter how much I sleep, I feel like I haven't had any in days. I know I have sleep apnea, and I would get that professionaly diagnosed, if it wasn't for being so damn

It's been over 3 months since I wrote in this blog. Wow! Anywhoo, a lot has changed since June. For one, I am about to lose my job in two weeks exactly. Not being fired or anything. Technically, I am resigning since I gave a two week notice, but I am still going to be able to get unemployment benefits due to the hospital putting me in a position that I am really not qualified for. They hired me thinking that I knew how do admitting patients and everything that goes with that, but I have never done that at the hospital. I did the billing side, and told her that in my interview. Oh well. A couple of months ago, I would probably be all depressed and crying and shit, blaming God or hating myself but not this time. I don't know if I have just matured the last couple of months, or what, but I am seeing this as an opportunity. I have wanted to leave S.C. since I was but a wee tot, and with me no longer having an 8 hour/5 day a week job, I am able to dedicate all of my attention into moving. I all ready have a place picked out in Ohio and the manager of the apartment complex and I have been emailing each other back and forth. Only thing I need now, is a job.

That aside, everything is virtually the same as it was before. Parents still fight.....sister is pregnant......hate living where I do. But, the prospect of moving fills me with hope and excitement that I have not felt since I was about to go to college for the first time. I know a lot of people are going to ask, "Why Ohio?" Well, the main reason is to be closer to my friend, Ed, who is, virtually, like a long lost brother. Our lives are so mirrored, it's scary, and I just think it will be fun getting to know him better. And more than likely, people will be yelling at us to stop singing, because we have all ready started a list of duets to record. LOL! Also, it's cheap as hell to live in the area I am looking at. It's about 40 minutes from Columbus, OH so it's not bad at all to be away from the action, as it were. I am trying to make a trip from Oct. 10-13th to go to Ohio and look at the apartment and meet with Ed and look for any place hiring. Hopefully birthday money will be headed in my direction, so I am able to go.

The only thing I wish would change at this exact moment is my damn sinuses/allergies. I have been having serious congestion for the last two weeks and it is driving me frackin' insane. I'm taking Claritan D, and it's helping a little bit, but it needs to hurry up and be winter so I don't have to suffer for a bit of time.

What else? I am getting SERIOUSLY obsessed with indie music. I used to be all about the top 40 hits, but since meeting Chess, Ed, and Bob, I have gotten really into indie music. Now, it's basically all I listen to. I've also gotten really into making mix albums. I use to make them all the time when I was younger but stopped. Scott, Chess, and Ed have rekindled that for me, as well. YAY friends!

I guess that's all for now. I have to get back to work (BLAH!) but I'll try to keep this updated as often as I can.

Peace out and whatnot! :-)